Between My Fingers

From between my fingers I watched You
I saw Your strength and wanted to feel
The power, the glow, the breathlessness
From between my fingers I saw how others responded
I saw the respect You were given
How they quietly parted like the red sea
How words were carefully put so as not to offend
The HIGHS and the lows according to Your gaze
I saw this, between my fingers.
I saw how like a moth to a flame You drew me in
Turning away was useless
My inner eye was focused on
And tuned into
That which I watched from between my fingers
The sound of Your voice
The strength of Your commands
I willingly gave until the wall
The long finger that pointed away from You
Extended out above my head.
To my left the darkness of my previous knowledge
To my right the bright spotted magnet of You
As if I were on a moving sidewalk I moved to the left
Making no progress for at the small of my back
I feel Your hand
Not pulling, not pushing…just there.
When I turn to look into Your eyes I don’t see you
If I call out my own voice echoes against me
Skin still hot..i know You are not gone
So why do I feel as if I am slipping away
Between Your fingers.

©Lainey Starr 2010

Top to Bottom

Attraction is a funny thing.
I’ve met it a few times
Always unexpected yet always welcome
It drops in and everything goes..
From the bottom to the top
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I had a schedule that I took the time to make
And in come Attraction and everything goes
From the bottom to the top From the top to the bottom
Don’t worry about the movie, rather have you by my side
Not concerned about lonely nights, you will hold me tight
Dark nights turn into unknown adventures in passion
Passion that moves from the bottom to the top
Then from the top to the bottom…
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Strong wills bring many chills
Or was that the ice on my skin?
Held down but truly set free
Being placed where I need to be
Going from the top to the bottom
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I’ve never come across one so strong
One that others should take a lesson from
You are like me, yet you are a prototype
Of the puzzle piece meant to fit with me
Other pieces have just never.quite.fit.
It’s all gone from the top to the bottom
From the bottom to the top
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My heart beats faster when you are around
My hands are sweaty
My mind races
And I feel…flipped
From the top to the bottom
I thought, at first, I should fight this
I should hold on to what I have had for so long
And then, little by little..i changed.
From the top to the bottom
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Attraction so strong but I want it to go on
Switching feels good if you have a good teacher
Show me, teach me, learn me, feel me
And then it starts all over…
From bottom to the top
From the top to the bottom.

©Lainey Starr 2010

Give and Take

the heart is tender
the heart is fragile
my heart is broken
yet my heart is strong
my love rebounds
better than any in the nba
good or bad
i come back
for more
and more..
feeding my hunger
and quenching my thirst
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i look for more
to satisfy
and satiate
to fill and to empty
what i have in me
that i give you
in.it's.entirety.
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if you ask i will give
if you demand..i will give
if you beg..i will give.. twice
know what i like...learn me
teach me...show me
mutuality is top goal.

©Lainey Starr 2010

The Climb

hands outstretched
reaching for the light
out of the darkness
i must climb the mountain
until, at last, i stand...
with the wind in my hair
victorious..again...

©Lainey Starr 2010