Different

Different.
It’s what I thought you were.
It’s what I hoped you would be.
Not like the others that played the game
Not like the ones that all acted the same.
I wanted you to be the one to stand above them.
To tower above all the okey dokes and be looked up to.
I believed your words,
How sweet you made yourself sound.
I guess I can admit my wrong
I shouldn’t have placed you on higher ground
But I wanted.. so badly
For the situation to be more than the same.
That you wouldn’t be like others, that you wouldn’t play the game.
I prayed for some guidance, an answer I thought I heard.
When the time came for talking, from you I heard not..one..word.
No questions answered.
No statements said.
Makes me really wonder, If that good man was all in my head.
I’ll move on from this point.
Yeah I’ll cry and I’ll sigh.
I’ll examine myself then move forward and look to the sky.
I had hoped you were different.
I so wanted you to be.
In the end… you were just.. the sad, sad, same.

©Lainey Starr 2010