0 ain't all bad

How many men can make me feel like you? 0

How many can make me boil like you do? 0

How many can take me and mold my heart like you? 0

Who can love me like you do? No one

Is there one that gives me as much as you do? No

How much more can he love me than you? He can’t

Can anyone make me see what a real man can do, besides you? No

Who holds my hands with better care? No one

Who caresses my soul better? No one

How many can make me love with such force? 0

So you see… 0 ain’t all that bad after all….

©Lainey Starr 2010

The Test

So you ask a question

I answer

No stutter, no hesitation

No smile, no laugh

Just the straight out, honest truth.

You run and hide

Afraid to speak your mind WITH me

Determined that you have the only and right side

Unfair it is

Cowardly as well

It’s actually quite puzzling

Immature

Time waste

But if it helps you rest at night

If having the ‘last word’ comforts you

Then I guess it’s a win/win situation

You tried to test me with hurt feelings

And I guess.. we both failed.

©Lainey Starr 2010

Clean

My skin reeks of you

Of your words

Of your lies

Of your unfinished sentences

My hair smells of partial stories

And the promise of sweet smells

My sweat pours out

Filled with aggravation

Tainted with hope unfulfilled

I am out of breath

From asking the same question o’er again

My mouth dry from asking why

Why did you do it

Why couldn’t you say it

Why did you not see…me

I want to be rid of this smell

I want no part of this filth

The dirty thoughts that used to entice

Only leave a sour taste in my mouth now

I want to be finished..

I want to be through

So I do what I have to do

I find..my strength.. as I always will

I will wash me

I will strip me of you

I will rid my soul of the hope of us

I will rinse off the start of you

I will close that door

I will be clean.

And I will start again.

©Lainey Starr 2010

Different

Different.
It’s what I thought you were.
It’s what I hoped you would be.
Not like the others that played the game
Not like the ones that all acted the same.
I wanted you to be the one to stand above them.
To tower above all the okey dokes and be looked up to.
I believed your words,
How sweet you made yourself sound.
I guess I can admit my wrong
I shouldn’t have placed you on higher ground
But I wanted.. so badly
For the situation to be more than the same.
That you wouldn’t be like others, that you wouldn’t play the game.
I prayed for some guidance, an answer I thought I heard.
When the time came for talking, from you I heard not..one..word.
No questions answered.
No statements said.
Makes me really wonder, If that good man was all in my head.
I’ll move on from this point.
Yeah I’ll cry and I’ll sigh.
I’ll examine myself then move forward and look to the sky.
I had hoped you were different.
I so wanted you to be.
In the end… you were just.. the sad, sad, same.

©Lainey Starr 2010

Say it

Say the words
The ones you keep hidden.
Scared? You?
I can hardly believe that.
The man whose mouth is always ready with words.
They flow from you just like my river from me.
Wisdom and Wit, sometimes even some bullshit.
But it’s all god anyway
Your words make me sway
They make me stay…enthralled in you.
Hanging on every word,
Others speak but are never heard.
I’m caught up in the magic of you.
Oh, how do you do, what you do
When you do, what you do?
I want the secrets you keep
It doesn’t matter how deep
Let it go, tell me all the details,
I wanna be your sounding board with all that it entails.
You start speaking slow
Then the words start to flow
I watch your lips move
Oh so sexy, oh so smooth.
I get lost when your bottom lip you lick
How I need to know what makes you tick.
The smooth chocolate of your voice,
It makes me weak, I have no choice.
I’m weak to your will, do with me what you may.
I shift in my seat, unable to keep my body from that sway.
Left, Right, Front and to the Back.
I’m starting to see where my world has slack.
More of you is what I need.
If I have too much it can turn to greed.
I’m not sure if I even care,
Your voice is the sweetest thing wafting through the air.
Gimme more, my eyes scream to you,
You know exactly how to do
You hold back, Then let it go
Repeat
Bring me to the edge and pull me back
If I didn’t enjoy it so much, I’d call you a tease.
Say it. Once, Twice, Three times.
Whisper in my ear and speak it to my neck.
I just need. I desire, I yearn for you
Say it.
©Lainey Starr 2010

Your Wave

The wave of your love
takes me high
andkeeps me wet.
My heart beats strong,
waiting for the next one.
Wash over me,
soak me to the core.
The sounds entice me
to move with the flow.
Take me up,
Pull me under
Keep me
-begging for more.
I'll ride this wave
-just like a pro.
I don't even care
how far we go.
Just wash out
-and come back to me.
I need
-to ride
-your wave
©Lainey Starr 2010

Sick

That feeling I get deep in the pit of my stomach
The churning and the turning
I am queasy with the thought,
of you.. with her.. and not me

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I didn't write the story this way
The verses don't flow like I want,
I am to be.. the one to do
any and every thing for you.

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Instead..... I am sick
writhing with the pain
of a hurt heart.
Wondering if there can be
any relief,
any cure,
any rehab
....from you

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Pain's so intense, worse than I'd ever felt.
And then... something happened.
A new therapy.. a different medicine
I've got a new prescription and ...damn
It's really...
Truly....
done my body some good
© Lainey Starr 2010

End of Love

So Its over between you and he
He’s moved on and now he is free
But, Is the only thing that matters
-the union of the ring?
When its over do you despair
Twirling round and round with no end
-except, the unforgiveable?
Do not fret the unknown
If you are brought to it, you can go through it
The innocents should not bear the brunt
Of the mistakes made by those who should know better
The blessings given yet taken too soon
In three days hence they shall not rise again
But they are in the hands of the Father
Peace be their bed now
The end of love should only be
-a new beginning
A change yes but never a door to desperation
Revenge is not best served warm or cold
Let He who reigns be the judge.

©Lainey Starr 2010

Take me

Take me
Take all of me
the top and the bottom
the front and the back
and don't forget the deep, deep inside
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You touched a spot and set off a spark
I'm smoldering now
Help me build the fire
Feel the heat of our burning desire
our bodily juices can put out the flame
-for a moment
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Relax and Replenish
Repeat and Release
a rollercoaster of HIGHS and lows
-loops and sharp turns
Ride me and take me over the top
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Take me and mold me to you
shape me to fit around you
take you in and squeeze you tight
Take me, as I give to you
My all, My Love, My Soul
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Open me to your ways
Show me how to feel you, fill yo, empty and refill you
Take me with your to the Highest Highs
and know I'll be there for the lowest lows.
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I'm willing and able
to give me to you
Take what I give
and treat it well
I'm strong yet fragile
Hard, yet soft
Take me....all
*****
©Lainey Starr 2010